What a load of rubbish! I've come back to this blog after abandoning it. What self-inflated crap have I written?! The layers of my denial ran deep. That I actually thought I was healing myself with yoga? That I actually thought I wanted recovery?! The truth - I was knee deep in an eating disorder … Continue reading I didn’t think I’d come back…
I’ve noticed the last few days that since I decided to embark on this journey I have, perversely, become resistant to it. Somehow taking the leap to share something so private has sent me recoiling back into the solitude of myself and my eating disorder. Perhaps it is the fear that now I have said … Continue reading The power of human connection
I tried to break up with my therapist today. We’d had a two-week holiday over the Christmas period that was sweet relief. "She reminded me the last time she had a two-week holiday I actually went as far as cheating on her and went to see another therapist." Although I’ve developed some semblance of trust … Continue reading Why not to break up with your therapist over text
Since I started this blog there has been a slight time lapse between writing and publishing – slight being a minor under-exaggeration. True, I’ve been going through the very real struggle of grappling with technology and website building, being as totally technologically incompetent as I am…the logistics of this have been enough to drive me … Continue reading Finding strength in vulnerability – and motivation for recovery
So I've set myself a huuuuge challenge. What feels like a full-time job after my 11 months (and counting) of gainful unemployment. I've never been very good at sticking to things. I start multiple projects, the excitement of possibility spurring me on, always to abandon them before they even get off the ground. Like that … Continue reading A beginning of an end?